im back

Heyoooo!!! It’s me. It’s been quite a while since I used my keyboard to spill out things that are scurrying in my mind. Come to think of it, the last time I wrote was last july…. damn! three years???? what have I been doing for the last three years? Was it that long the muses haven’t paid a visit? I guess being in a relationship focused my attention into a lot of new things and it took a while before I got the hang of playing the role of a gf. But…. taking a back seat for a while doesn’t mean I have no idea what’s going on around the internet. I’ve read blogs after blogs…. emails after emails… surveys after surveys… and jokes after jokes. Heck! Sometimes I even can’t resist the urge of answering some surveys no matter how busy I was. What really caught my attention though are the blogs and surveys from people that I know (believe me, i really know them well) bragging how rich they are…. how pretty they are…. how easy for them to say ewwww!!!! to people who are drenched by rain…. and how sad they are for having every material thing (atleast that’s what they think) in the world and yet still clueless about their purpose in life. I’ve had people “stealing” articles that I wrote and claiming it as their own and even some who copied the friendster profile I did for my bf and posted it in their blog as if it was them who wrote it. Those people I could forgive, but reading entries that claims they are these and that, when in fact a lot of people know that’s B.S.. really ticks me off.

Before you get furious, let me remind you again…. I am not talking about just one person only. The person I’m referring about is those people who thinks that they are at the top of their game when in fact, they are just struggling to make themselves believe that they are happy. But if one or two items I wrote below would make you think that it’s you I’m talking about…. maybe it really is you.

I don’t want to itemize everything these people wrote that are a bunch of crap…. BUT!!!! I just want you to know…..

….people know that you just ride a tricycle and jeepney going to school

….people know where you grew up and live until now, unlike where you’re claiming your hometown is

….people know that you are not pretty, sexy and hot like what you claim to be coz everybody can see the truth face to face when you walk down the street on your way to the tricycle terminal. the only reason why they turn around and look at you is that they can’t believe the guts you have to wear that skimpy outfit.

….people love and adore your siblings and not you coz their acheivements make them stand out among the crowd. being silent and achieving all those honors makes people want to be like them.

….people know that even if you have those things that you claim to have, they are just imitations, pirated, and second hands

….people know that you don’t go to these prestigious school like you claim to go to… that you were transferred because your parents cannot afford the tuition anymore and your grades are not enough to keep you there.

….that you don’t have a single family here in the US like you claim to have. everybody knows that the only reason why you were able to travel abroad is because it’s your job to meet people’s needs and demands while sitting out long fights

….people know that you’re a slut…. pretending to be this goody-goody innocent girl, but is very skilled in using a “live” mic…. if you know what I mean

….people know that you don’t really call you parents mommy and daddy, but inay and itay.

….people know that you’re gay, even if you hide behind these gorgeous women and your macho image

….people know that the reason you’re with your bf is because of the financial security that he could give you and he could feed your hunger of material things

….that you really don’t know how to drive unlike what you claim that you’ve been driving for years. no experienced driver drives 5 mph on a street that has a minimum speed of 20 mph and no experienced driver freaks out whenever a car or truck overtakes them

….you are not an expert on computers coz you think popups are a kind of drink

….english is not the primary language used at your home coz if that would be the case, you won’t be saying “tweynte” instead of twenty and refer to sunny side up cooked eggs as “inside-out” cooked eggs

and most of all….

….people know that your parents are working hard, making a big sacrifice to be away from their family and yet, you sit on your fat butt letting everybody know that you get everything you ask from them. What a way to repay them right?

You ask what right do I have to say these things? For one…. I speak for the people who laughs and gets annoyed at the blogs and surveys you post almost every other day…. knowing that they are all a bunch of crap. Second, I was once like you, I mean, I think everybody is guilty of saying a lie or two to impress people right? (pero matindi ka pa din) Luckily, I met people who were able shake the sense out of me. I have done things in the past that I could not be proud of, and I’ve failed over and over again…. making decisions that I thought were smart, but later realized that they were a bunch of crap as well. I was lucky coz I met those people…. now, to pay them back, I want to be the person to beat the f*cking sense out of you and to be the person who slaps the truth on your face that people reading your postings are not impressed, but are laughing their hearts out. No, we do not envy you like what you think…. we pity you for having a sad soul and having this delusional world that you live in.

I believe that where we are right now is the result of the decision we made five years ago. Imagine yourself where you’ll be five years from today if you still continue the path you’re taking right now. I am not perfect… if only I could show you the battle scars that life has given me. But hideous they may seem, I am proud of it for they taught me a lot and life’s whiplash made me a better person. Set yourself free and learn from every lesson that nature has to offer, even if it arrives in harsh words, inspirational quotes from highway billboards, or it beats the hell out of you. I did…. and I am happy where I am right now.

I don’t know how you’ll react…. I don’t give a sh*t coz the truth still stands out…. you’re clueless of who you really are and where on earth you are right now. But…..the choice is yours. You could continue to entertain us with your “wit” and poor excuse of an intellect, or you could inspire us to look within ourselves and change our “evil” ways by changing yours as well.

Until then, all that you’ve written and said deserves nothing more than to be flushed down the drain.

success

hahahaha i haf no idea if i should be happy or frustrated. my phone had some problems this morn, so i couldn’t receive any msg or calls at all.

well anyway, at 1125 am i received a msg saying that the cells i was growing successfully grew!! *FINALLY!!!!* hahaha which was good news cos i spent 2 weeks on this experiment and i was in the process of doing it for the 5th time. *phew* so frank asked me to go back to lab at about 5pm. but the bad news was that by the time i saw that msg i was already in school!! *-_-* sigh i went all the way to sch (spent 1.5 hrs to get there cos it was raining very heavily) then realised i din haf to go after all. so in the end i decided to eat my lunch in sch be4 i went home.

yup i just got home. i should haf slept more man. i mean, it was raining!! wat perfect weather for sleep. besides, i only slept at 3.30 am cos i went to watch x-men3 wif siming ang gabe.. reached home abt 2am (gabe, hurry get ur vios.. or mazda 3.. then no need to take cab home! *lol*) bathed and chatted wif my dad (for some odd reason he couldn’t sleep. altho i was abt to KO but i felt that it was only filial to chat wif him since he’s wandering around the house) *haha*

x-men3 was not too bad la.. think perhaps i was kinda tired last nite so i was yawning alot towards the end of the show and wishing it would end soon. haha.

well, gotta go back to sch (again) to pick out the cells later. in the mean time i shall go nap abit.

p/s: since this sat’s show has been cancelled, i guess this is goodbye to the PG peeps. well i shall say a proper farewell on this fri’s practice.. which shall be my last. hope i can join u guys again after i graduate in july 2007! in the mean time, jia you guys! LWS PG is the best~!!

it’s over

haha yupz my exams are finally over~!!! so happy.. but then again i’m kinda sad too.. after exams i’m kinda lost. now i’m just sitting in front of the laptop wondering wat the heck i can do now. *think think*

sigh u know i can’t believe i studied the entire sem’s worth of lectures in 1.5 days. had a paper on tues afternoon.. after that paper my frens and i went to haf prata, then i came home and started studying at 8pm.. studied 4 lectures that nite till 430 am in the morn. which was kinda a miracle. then woke up in the morn at 8am, studied all the way.. 8 lectures in one day!! broke my record liao. hahaha. then had that paper this afternoon. die liao la this paper.. altho it’s actuallie quite straightforward, but i couldn’t answer a few questions because i don remember the details. hai i guess i can’t expect much.. how to remember 12 lectures in 1.5 days?!?! haha oh well.. my fault la.. nv study properly..

nvm it’s over. 3 of us went over to my fren’s house after the paper to further abuse our fingers playing playstation. streetfighter + a bunch of girls who dunno how to play it = pressing the buttons in a fierce and random manner. i think we might as well haf been stepping on the buttons man. after which we went over for our first aerobics class!! i seriously think i haf terrible hand feet coordination. at least i can still swim. *lol*

that aside, i’m now sitting here, seriously wondering wat to do. i mean, anime watching has lost its purpose becos it’s only fun to watch them when u’re not s’pose to. hmmmz.. well i still haf one last lab report to do.. better do it properly cos i need it to pull up my results for todae’s paper. hahaha. oh well. 3 months of slacking.. sounds gd.. i guess…

Guy Mysteries

that’s rite. guys… every straight girl’s nitemare. but no worries. i now haf an official ‘Guide To Guys’ handbook, which is extremely convenient becos it talks, explains, and even gives you illustrations and tips. instant answers. yupz.. all these come in the form of Gabriel, and batteries are not required. had a reallie good tok wif him just now.. found out some interesting things abt guys. of cos now i’ve become HIS guidebook to girls, but i don mind at all. hahaha. all i can say is it was an informative nite!

ok guys aside.. managed to read thru 3 lectures todae.. kinda not very productive.. but i was hafing a bad headache in the afternoon n kinda slept alot. haha. being stuck at home is super boring.. toking abt being stuck at home, i just remembered i got no lunch later todae. sigh… oh well nvm i shall just skip it. anyway there’s nothing to eat at home so i can just study all the way n forget abt eating! good idea.

LWSSOM Openhouse coming up this weekend.. starts at 1130am so if u guys haf time can go down and take a look! hahaha who m i kidding man.. all hafing exams so no1 will bother to go down i knoe. BUT in case some1 reading this DOESN’T haf exams n is interested, pls do go down and take a look! it’ll be great..!

last but not least, CONGRATS to XIA RI FENG and MAN TOU for getting into the top 14 for Superband!!! jia you jia you!! altho i’m reallie sorry i don’t haf the time to go down to physically support u guys, but i’m cheering u guys on from home!! n sending alotta sms to support u guys too.. going broke liao. hahaha. keep it up u guys!!

ok it’s 425 am in the morning. i think i should get some sleep be4 waking up at 8am to start the next round of studying. sigh.. tok abt stress.. feeling so frustrated now.. but no worries, i’m not one who will be beaten by my emotions. as i was telling gabe.. my head rules over my heart, which means that i can psycho myself into being emotionless. which is wat i shall do for the next 3 wks. *^o^*

wonder if i haf the time to drop by LWS on sat.. sigh.. argh i haven’t register for LCMM!! help!!

Feeling the Stress

i think the title says it all.

and to further prove my point, my fren has officially changed her name to ‘prata’ cos i kept trying to psycho her into going for supper wif me by yelling ‘prata’ in her face. which hasn’t worked, unfortunately. hahaha. and she thinks i’m going bonkers.

and i went to her house todae.. no, not to study. guess again.. hahaha.. my mum thinks i’m mad cos i went over just to play with this cat that just appeared at her house. a well-trained persian cat. extremely docile, loves hafing attention showered upon her, acts like she owns the house (she even knoes where the toilet is when it’s her first time there!! omg) and tries extremely hard to enter the master bedroom (which didn’t work of cos). yupz, i was just there to play wif the cat. after that i ended up watching tv be4 deciding to go home.. n when i got home i finally, finally managed to go for my much needed jog.. for once it’s not raining!!! felt great after sweating all my frustrations out… and not to mention feeling my muscles relax abit after being tensed up for so long. basically i just felt great.

but now i’m staring at my books again. n i can feel a headache coming. pls, no no no.. don’t give me a headache now.. i’m still planning to study thru the nite…!! it’s good to deplete my house of food cos now i haf nothing to munch on. *hahaha* ok i’m starting to feel a bit high. better stop be4 i start to sound incoherent.

Gotta Hide my Laptop

ok it’s pouring outside.. which is great cos i’m at home n not out there in the rain!! *lol* ooo lightning.. n now there’s thunder.. cool man..

that’s rite, i’m now on study break.. from todae till my first paper on 20 april. i’m so dead. extremely behind time in my studies but i’m still happily slacking away. this is very bad. but then again, this happens every single semester. hahahaha. some ppl (mainly me) just never learn. seriously, i think some1 ought to hide my laptop; chain it up, remove all its possible power sources and lock them up in a safety box. THEN i’ll haf no choice but to study. or maybe i can just hibernate in school 24hrs a day. bring a sleeping bag over. or rather just give me a car so that i won’t find going to sch to study such a chore. i gotta concentrate!!! n nope i’m not going to appear at LWS again until my exams are over. ok who am i kidding man. i haven’t even register for LCMM!! so either way it looks like i gotta go down at least once more to get that done. *sigh* ok ok the fault is entirely mine.. kept 4getting abt it..

just found out that i gotta go back in july (22-28) for a crash course in entrepreneurship. wat the heck man. but thank goodness the ppl in my uni gang all happen to be in my group!! except for xinyu.. hey gal go find some1 to change wif leh.. in the meantime help ming cong find one from grp 1 to change wif grp2 also.. cos apparently he says he knoes more ppl in grp2 so he would kinda like to change over. hahaha.. yeah man grp 2 is the happening grp..!! but back to the main topic here.. y on earth do we haf to go thru this weird course in the 1st place? n there i was happily trapped in the disillusion of FINALLY hafing sch to start 2 wks later this yr.. so they were just feeding us candy before the medicine. guess i was too gullible.

ok since i’m so way behind my study plan i think i better go get something done. not sure if i can pop by LWS on one of the openhouse days.. hopefully i can.. think maybe 15 apr might be able to. hmmm…

p/s i got my birkis 2 days ago!! *hop around wif joy*

Exams

man.. exams are in 2 weeks n i still haven’t gotten to studying. all the reports i haf to do are taking too much of my time. i reallie can’t understand y the sch is so screwed up.. dumping all the reports on us just before the exams, then the beginning of the sem don haf reports to do n keep cancelling lectures. WTH..

ok but anyway i haf one more report to do n i’ll be free to concentrate on my studies. better finish it by tonite. there’s a comp prac tmr but i heard that we don haf to hand in report. finally man.. if that’s the case i’m so not going for the lesson. waste my time. toking abt time wasting.. the prof for BS306 was super late this morning. we waited till like 1115 am (the lecture s’pose to start at 1030) then irene came in to tell us that the prof got his schedule wrong and will come at 230pm instead. WTH. so in the end the prof for our 230 lecture switch wif him and came for the lecture at 1130am. THEN at 230pm we all went for the 306 lecture.. n waited till like 3pm before the lecturer came lor. was so tempted to leave. wasted so much time in sch todae.. sigh..

after the lectures todae i felt so stressed.. it’s only 2 weeks to the exams n i’m nowhere near studying. so i decided to go to my sch’s supermart and bought seaweed to eat! hahaha.. n a huge packet of mamee to munch on. that’s wat i do when i’m stressed.. eat junk food! n i’ve been wanting to go jogging.. but i either come home late or it’s raining. argh!! nvm.. tmr’s my self-declared off day so i must go jog in the morning.. i desperately need to sweat n relax my muscles abit. especially since i’ve been feeling extremely stiff cos i’ve been doing too many reports.. *Sigh*

wish i can take part in the LWS openhouse.. but unfortunately it’s on 15 and 16 april and my exams start 20 april. can’t spare the time to practice. i’m going to miss out on so many things.. *upset* but i guess my results are more important.

everyone’s playing wicked junior now. but i don dare to start!! esp since i stopped playing wicked itself liao.. no no i must concentrate on my studies. shouldn’t waste my brain cells on this kinda game now. wait till my exams over.. haha..

ok my shoulders are reallie aching now. n i still haf to do report.. i’m going to be stuck in one position after tonite man.. but better hurry up n finish the report. i reallie need to get down to studying. desperate liao.

BS307 Reports~*

i’m going crazy over the reports man. can i just crumple up my report and throw it at him?? i’m so utterly confused but he keeps sending emails that only serve to confuse me more. some1 just knock me unconscious and stop torturing me. or better yet, just send me ur reports after u’re all done and we can do some comparison..! not to mention a couple of cut and pastes from each other’s reports to make it whole. hahahaha. ok stop watching sailormoon and go study. *give myself a knock on the head*

Eggs

hahaha joann i shall go adopt some egg too….!! *grin* hey.. all of u got all the 5 diff kinds liao.. lidat i dunno wat to choose already.. nvm i adopt all. hungry liao got egg to eat also not bad. hahaha..

well yest went out for dinner wif my LWS frens.. n ended up in the foodcourt at cineleisure. not that i mind cos i’m kinda broke so need to save $$. but i think joann is alot more broke than me. hahaha. how is that even possible?? she has like $30 left for the rest of the month. which i think is just enuff for her considering that the end of the month is in like, 3 days? including todae of cos.

man i’m hungry. gotta go cook me some instant noodles later. i’m so dead. i haf that stupid 306 quiz tmr that i haven’t exactly studied for.. which means i must finish 5.5 lectures todae!! OMG!! i’m reallie going to sit in front of my table and cram everything in man.. no sleeping/resting for me todae. full concentration on my notes!

siming just introduced this sailormoon show to me.. it’s acted by real live ppl.. think u guys should check it out. has great entertainment value. hahaha. was luffing so hard on the 1st episode my mum came into my room and was like, ‘WAT’S SO FUNNY?!’ good for ppl under stress! go check it out.. siming i’m SHARING this..!! haha

http://www.youtube.com/profile_videos?user=sailormoon123&page=9

just received a frenster msg from one of my frens.. yanto.. din knoe u’re called ian!! i was like, who the heck is that?? kinda dreading that it was another one of those ‘hi, can we be frens?’ kinda guy which i always ignore. but anyway the point is, after getting over the shock from trying to relate the name IAN to my fren’s face, i read the msg.. well apparently to him i changed alot and became more outgoing. hmmm. is that a good thing? well i don think i changed much.. it’s just that i haven’t been showing my whacky side..! kinda hard to get all high and stuff when ur frens aren’t exactly cooperating wif u. haha.

toking abt crap. calvin, gabe, next time don run off for pool alone la.. come join us for dinner liao THEN run off for pool!! i’m reallie starting to wonder if u guys haf sumthing going on man… hahaha.. ok ok don poke me..

in the mean time, i reallie gotta go study for tmr’s quiz. 5.5 lectures, 15 hrs to study… that’s abt 3 hrs per lecture. OK. I CAN DO IT. but i shall go adopt an egg first. it better not come up rotten wif flies all over it.

6 Ways to Make Your Wildest Dreams Come True

Somewhere deep down, we've all got a few crazy dreams we'd like to live out — like seeing your face on the big screen or winning a huge jackpot. Here's how to make your fantasies a reality — no sweat!
Ever dream of crashing the Emmys? Being pampered at a luxury hotel? Believe it or not, these aren't just crazy pipe dreams. You can actually make these fantasies come true — with just a little effort! Read on for the simple secrets to living your dream life.

Fantasy #1: Winning a Contest or Sweepstakes
Forget those one-in-a-kajillion Powerball odds. Instead try local sweepstakes, such as a grand-opening giveaway at a new department store. These contests offer you the best chances of winning simply because there are likely to be far fewer entries, says Steve Ledoux, author of How to Win Lotteries, Sweepstakes, and Contests in the 21st Century. Plus, unlike Lotto, you can enter free! "Once, I saw that a grocery-store chain was giving away a TV at each of its stores for its anniversary," says Ledoux. "I entered at every store in my area and ended up winning three TVs and the grand-prize trip to Puerto Rico!" Some of his winning secrets: If you're allowed to submit more than one entry, do just that and stagger them over a few weeks or months (depending on how long the contest is open) so they're mixed in throughout the entries. And if the rules say it's okay, fold your entry form into an accordion, use a big or brightly colored envelope or decorate your envelope: tricks that will help draw the person picking the winner to your entry.

Fantasy #2: Hobnobbing with the Stars at an Awards Show
Surprise: Though some of the biggest awards shows, such as the Oscars and Grammys, are invite-only, many others (such as the Emmys) sell tickets to the general public. Check the Website for the show of your choice two to three months before the big day to see if tickets are available and how to buy them. (The Emmys are typically held in late September; the major movie awards are held in the first few months of the year. Check out www.tvguidelive.com/awards for a list of awards shows and their taping dates.)

Have your heart set on a no-outsiders-allowed affair — or don't feel like shelling out $100 to $1,000 for tickets? Try signing up to be a seat filler. These folks help fill empty seats — say, if Tom Cruise is running late or Shania Twain has to go to the bathroom — so the auditorium looks full on TV. (Forget about making friends with the celebs, though; you're generally not allowed to take pictures, ask for autographs or even speak to the stars.) Go to www.seatfiller.com to sign up and learn more.

Fantasy #3: Seeing Your Name in a National Magazine
Many mags (including ours!) are always looking for readers to share quotes, tips and anecdotes. Often they'll put out last-minute calls for stories on the Web, so frequently check your favorite magazine's Website to see if there's anything you can contribute. You can also send in your photo, phone number and email address and let the mag of your choice know it's okay to contact you.

Another way to get your name in print is by having a letter to the editor published. What makes a winning letter? Single out a specific story and specify how it has affected you personally. Redbook's very own Lori Conte, who edits the Red Letters page, says, "I'm always looking for letters that say how an article has inspired you to change your life, whether you finally saw your doctor about a long-standing problem or you tried a timesaving tip that worked."

Dreaming of getting an article you wrote published? Magazines are always looking for dramatic real-life stories, so if you've had a medical miracle in your family or triumphed over a traumatic experience, that's a good type of story to submit. Get to know the style and content of your favorite magazine, then send a brief (no more than one page) letter summarizing your story and telling the editors how you can be reached if they're interested in hearing more. Oh, and don't send your pitch to the editor-in-chief or to several editors at the same magazine. Check the masthead (the list of everyone who works there, usually found after the table of contents) and find the name of someone in the articles department. (He or she will usually have a title like articles editor or senior editor.) Then send your work to that person.

Fantasy #4: Getting Your Artwork Shown
You probably paint, draw or sculpt just for the joy of it, but haven't you secretly wanted to share your art with the world? Start by canvassing local restaurants, banks, office buildings and libraries to see if they'd be willing to put some of your work on their walls for a few weeks. "Most locally owned businesses, if they have the space, are pretty receptive to the idea of decorating in a way that doesn't cost them anything and represents the community," says Lauren Jarrett, an author of The Complete Idiot's Guide to Drawing.

If you know two or three other amateur artists, you can rent out a space (say, at a community center or the YMCA) and throw a joint show. Short on cash? Have a show in someone's home one weekend. The best way to get the word out is through email and by posting flyers around town, says Jarrett, and perhaps with a free listing in your local paper's community calendar. To price your art, check out other art shows and see what art like yours sells for. You should aim to cover at least the cost of the materials and framing, which may be as much as several hundred dollars depending on the size of your work.

The bottom line: If you want to share your art, don't give up. "Even if the first 10 people you talk to don't love your stuff, that doesn't mean it's not good," says Ian Gerard, CEO of Gen Art, a national organization that supports emerging artists in visual arts, music, film and fashion. "If you're persistent, you can always find an audience for your art."

Fantasy #5: Staying in a Five-Star Hotel
To score a superluxe room at affordable rates, use what Joel Widzer, author of The Penny Pincher's Passport to Luxury Travel, calls the contrarian strategy: Go against the trend. Hotels are more likely to offer deep discounts and free room upgrades during the off season or other slow times. According to Widzer, the week before Thanksgiving is a great time to go to Hawaii: "Thanksgiving and Christmas are the busiest times for hotels there, but the week before Thanksgiving and the first two weeks of December are practically dead," he says. If you can be flexible about your travel dates, ask the hotel reservation agent when the slowest times are and adjust your schedule accordingly. Another way to land a swanky suite for less is to take advantage of frequent-flyer- and credit-card-rewards programs. For maximum flexibility, choose a program that offers a wide range of travel rewards, like American Express or Diners Club, says Widzer. You can also score a cheap room through discount travel sites, like www.priceline.com, though Widzer warns that while you'll get a great price, you may not get the hotel's best rooms. You might do better checking rates on the hotel's own Website, then calling the hotel directly (not its 800 number) to try to get a deal.

Fantasy #6: Being in Movies
Even if you live thousands of miles from Hollywood, chances are there are movies being filmed somewhere near you, and those movies need extras. Street scenes need passersby, restaurant scenes need diners — you get the idea. (But you probably won't land a role that requires you to snuggle with Russell Crowe — sorry!) So how do you get on the set? Most states, and some cities, have a film commission that helps coordinate film and TV shoots in the area. You can find yours through the Association of Film Commissioners International (www.afci.org). Call or check your local commission's Website to find out if any film crews are coming to a town near you, and if so, whether they're looking for extras. Depending on the commission's policies, they may be able to put you in touch with a film's production company or even tell you when and where to show up for an open call (a sort of mass audition for extras). For example, the Maryland Film Office Website has a hot-line section that lists films looking for actors and extras.

If you live near New York or Los Angeles and are feeling extra ambitious, you can send your photo to a casting agent. Pick up the trade magazines Backstage, Show Business and The Ross Report to find the names of agents, recommends Sylvia Fay, a casting agent in New York. Send an 8×10 head shot with a typed reésumé detailing any acting experience you may have, plus any special talents you have (juggling, Rollerblading, horseback riding). Don't forget to include your phone number!